Fears.
This is a topic that has been in my mind a lot lately.
I have a fear of being left out - I always want to be with people. I always want to be where the fun is. I don't want to miss out on something people will be talking about tomorrow.
I have a fear of people not liking me - I try to be as social and as nice as possible. For those who know me personally, I try to be the most bubbly person possible because I am scared of people hating me. I'm scared of people talking behind my back.
I have a fear of the unknown - As a girl in college, I'm scared no job will want me when I graduate. People keep telling me that teachers don't make enough money...and try to make me explore other options. They make me feel that my choices are not good enough.
Fear is a paralyzing thing. If it consumes you enough, it can restrict you from your dreams and aspirations. Honestly, it is tragic the sheer number of fledgling dreams that have been killed by fear. A fear of failure, mockery, hurt, and humiliation has kept me from doing so many things. I have damaged so many relationships because of my fear of rejection and abandonment. A lot of the decisions that I’ve made in my life have been motivated by fear.
But WHY do I let it consume me? Why does it have to be something that takes over my life? Why do I disregard all of the blessings in my life to hide from my fears? Just why...
Why be afraid when your greatest fears could carry out your greatest growths?
I have a fear of being left out...why not focus on life's precious little moments
Why do I force myself to feel miserable when I'm not at every major event everyone is going to. I am practicing being able to enjoy the moments that God has blessed me with. In the end, you won't remember the things you didn't do, but have memories of the things you did.
I have a fear of people not liking me...why not focus on the people in my life God has blessed me with
When I am so focused on forcing people to like me, I forget what blessings are right in front of me. I forget the people who are always there for me and I don't give them enough credit. Joshua, Ashley, Michael, Andrew, Olivia, Gracie, Gianna, Sam...you have always stuck by me. Why should I focus on forcing myself to be likable when I should be making countless memories with my best friends who already love me for who I am.
I have a fear of the unknown...why should I restrict that from following my dreams
I know one thing for sure, I am going to LOVE what I do when I grow up. I am going to love teaching students and having my own family. I have faith that there will be light in my future. I must be able to trust God in the dark, He has a plan for all of us.
Fears should not be what stops us, but from what drives us. In order to escape from fear, you have to go through it, not around it. Everything you want is on the other side of fear. In order to get there, we must embrace what's to come.
With His love, He will calm all your fears. - Zephaniah 3:17
Say to all those who have an anxious heart, "be strong, fear not!" - Isaiah 35:4
The Lord is on my side; I will not fear. - Psalm 118:6
For with God, nothing shall be impossible. - Luke 1:37
-Jenna
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